my totally suckish world

idk wat to do...i cnt forget him at all....no matter wat i do...smtms i tink i lyke another guy bt all de time i juz lyke him...he is de first guy i ever dare sae i luv him so much..i noe...i'm so stupid bt i can't seem to be able to speak while looking at him.i feel so tird and i juz duno wat to tink or sae anymore..m i such a suchish person?nobody lykes me......m i such a loser?